Like Rats Leaving a Sinking Ship

So we are over.
Girlfriend (or should I say ex-girlfriend) texted me this morning to say ''You're really sweet and nice, but I don't want a Relationship, I'm too busy, I wanna see other people, etc..'' Well not in these words, but you get it. Typical breakup thing.

Where could I begin commenting on that....?

Recently, we had a few disagreements. I did a few wrong steps, I acknowledge. I wanted to see her, discuss, see where we see eye to eye and where we are not on the same page, so that we can work on that. I'm not a quitter, a bailer, or whatever. I do mistakes, acknowledge them, and try to repair them or at least not to redo them.

But.. it didn't work like that. I didn't get to sit down with her. And after a few days without talking, well... she decided that she couldn't do it. And broke up.

Few weeks ago, I wanted to write a blog entry called ''Like Rats Leaving A Sinking Ship''. Because she asked me to take a job in her area, etc. And it made me feel like I was letting down my parents. My parents who have some difficulties right now.

And my reflexion was that even if I was feeling like this, sometimes we have to be the rats and save ourselves before the others. I mean... I'm at the age where I need to say Ciao Bye to a lot of things and go on my own.

But I didn't post it, because.. well the text wasn't really as good as I anticipated in my head. Good thing, because how would I have named that one?

Anyways, part of me is ready to condemn her. As I was going to do it here. but now that I am writing.. I see that this quote: ''Like Rats Leaving A Sinking Ship'' isn't necessarily negative.

Part of me felt like it was coming (my sacrosanct intuition I never listen to). But the other part wanted to work on things.

Maybe I would have sink right in with the boat. On this one, I wouldn't have saved myself. Like with some of my other previous girlfriends. By being a ''Rat'' (not necessarily a negative thing like I said), maybe she was saving us from something. Maybe we would have continue to sink, with more and more leaks, trying to hold everything together.

Although I am a bit cold, because I don't know where I stand and if I need to cry, laugh, or be angry or what, the moral is: sometimes it is better to leave before the boat sink completely. Sometimes we have to be rats, and leave first. It isn't necessarily a negative thing to be a rat.







Ps: Breaking up by text isn't nice. Really. A bit insulting.
Pps: I really like the moral I came up with. Really.